Comments on: Day 3

By: Crystal

Crystal — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 15:59:38 +0000

Nikki, Beth, thanks. I wrote that post and debated about whether to publish it or not. its’ just how I feel. I am going through the stage of second guessing myself. I even thought this morning if I had bred her, how she would have been out with Tig and Whit… and how I would have had a foal.

By: nikki

nikki — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 15:48:39 +0000

Beth pretty much took the words out of my mouth.

There’s really nothing anyone can say to you to make you feel better. I DO know how you feel, but that doesn’t help you at all. It sucks. Its the WORST thing in the world. And you’re right. You never really get over it. It gets better, you find ways to deal with it, and you learn to move on, but you never get over it. And every time you see her picture it’ll all come back. (Sorry, I’m not gonna sit here and tell you that everything’s gonna be okay and all that crap.)

I know because I lost my Cook when I was 16. I’m still not over it. I still cry for her, I still curse and get mad about it, I still hate that she was taken.

Of course you didn’t have enough time with her. But you will come to the point where you can look back over your time together and be thankful. It takes a while, but it does come. And when it does, it sucks all over again.

It helps to talk about it, when you’re ready. It helps to scream and cry and FEEL. Even though it sucks.

I wish there were something I could do for you, something to make you feel better, but there’s not. Just know that you’re in my prayers and if you need me I”m here. We all are. Some people just keep their distance so it doesn’t make you feel worse. But we’re all here.

By: Beth

Beth — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 14:41:08 +0000

The pain will lessen. Its hard to imagine it. Its hard to imagine that you will not fall to pieces everytime you see a picture, see a piece of equipment that was hers, touch another animal…but someday, it will get better. But then once in a while it will sneak up on you and bring you back to your knees.

You will count the days and then the weeks. You will measure time by her passing. You may resent a new horse if you get one too soon, it will never be Cook, can never be Cook.

Those lifetime animals are rare…but are lives are better for having had them.

People suck. They say the wrong things and think if they talk about anything else it will distract you. When in reality all you want to do is talk about Cook.