I tried to go to bed tonight with no medication help, and I actually managed to fall asleep around 11ish.  However, the problem is its now 2Am and I’m awake.  I will have to figure out some happy medium.  I need to be able to function in the morning without looking like a zombie.

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Part of the reason I’m restless tonight is because I went to see Elise.  Elise lost her horse, Mimi last year ON THANKSGIVING as well.  What a weird con-winky-dink.  Mimi and Cook run neck and neck down the post in the race for  ‘Most Adored Horse’.   I cried at her house.  Surprised I still have any tears left.  My tear ducts are on strike.  Now, when I’m upset, I have a porcupine response.  My body can’t physically deal with any more stress, so it just tries to curl up in a ball and wait for the danger to pass.  I get sad, and immediately I feel like I need a nap.