I’m back from the show. I’m so exhausted and horribly feeling bad. There is something wrong with my jaw / gums on one side. Am gonna call the dentist first thing in the morning to get an appt. it is random and weird. but so damn painful… it HAS to be an infection. My gums are swollen and under my jaw hurts to even touch it.

Nice huh?

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I know that as I type this, fatigue is just over-whelming. But I wanted to briefly blog this.

At the show, I stayed with a girl who trains with J and B… I didn’t know her very well. We had met a few times but never really talked. The rooming situation was crowded and she offered to let me stay with her.

Of course, over the 3 day, Cook came up and my love for her. We talked for hours and it turns out she has a “Cook”. The way she described her love and the things she did were SO similar to the things I did for Cook, it sent chills through me. She has a new horse too… similar to Ami in the way that we both got new horses we are bonding with. I just talked to her about how much, how hard I am FIGHTING to make him mine, to make him love me, to make him take me to the heights I couldn’t with Cook. I told her about how I don’t know how much longer I can do this. Horses are just so much heart break that I can’t stand it sometimes.

I cried alot with her. I cry now, writing this post.

It was comforting for someone to understand, listen, and share.