“If I control my destiny, maybe then one day I will give this world the best of me”

Someone was noticing that my blogs have been more on the depressing side lately.  I’m not depressed but I have alot on my mind.  I’m 30 and at a point where I have to just make sure that my rudder is steering me in the right direction.   I don’t want to make any mistakes.  I’m too old to go down the wrong road and back-track so I’m just taking some time to ponder the fork in the road before I make my move.

I have alot of different things filling my head.  Right now, it’s too much to ponder.   Birdie is laying with me.  She always makes me feel better.  If no one else, Bird, Cad and Cook love me.

I didnt’ ride today (too damn cold and I was slammed at work) but I went out afterwards to see Cook.  Mere was out.  That was cool.  With everything going on in our individual lives, we don’t get to hang out as much any more.  So we got a chance to talk a lil and I got to hang with Cook.  She’s so completely used to me being with her all the time, she doesnt even blink an eye no matter what I do.  I could totally spend the night with her in her stall and feel completely safe - she wouldn’t even be surprised.   Sad but true.