I have had 2 tough days in a row - Monday and Tues. It just didnt’ seem that anything went my way… at all. what makes it even worse is that everyone around me knows I’m stressed and tired but either they (A) aren’t doing anything to make me have less stress or (B) actually -adding- to the stress.

What is wrong with people?

I really want to be left alone for a little while and left to sort things out on my own. I have decisions ahead of me that I need to make, because -definitely- things cannot continue like they are.

On the horse front, no good news there either. Cook’s leg still looks like crap although people at the barn say oh! its healing! it will be fine . Uh huh. I’m not so happy dancing that my horse has been off and trying to heal for a month now. I did trot her out yesterday and shes’ as sound as can be, but that is with no work and no rider weight. The other boo-boos she has are starting to heal and go away, however right now she still looks like she got beat with a boo-boo stick.

Miss. Sigh. I have been riding alone in the ring for weeks now (except here and there, once with Kathy and once with Rachel) and its’ not been a positive. The past 2 days (and I know it coincides with my mood) have been HARD rides. Yesterday she pulled on my fingers so bad, that more than 24 hours later, my finger tips were still numb from the lack of circulation. Gloves might have helped but they tend to make the reins more slippery, so I rode without them. Kevin was unavailable last week, so I haven’t had any one on the ground either in 2 weeks.

And we are supposed to show this Saturday.

Nightmare.

Then as if my life is complicated enough, my mom wants to come visit me (mad at Paul and wants to go somewhere different) and help me with my house (although she is not feeling well right now so I’m not sure what she means by that.). Added on TOP of that, I still have Little and her one un-named kitten and my mom is deathly afraid of cats. So I am sure I will hear shrieking all weekend. She has never come to see the house or the apt because of the cats and has tried to convince me (from Fayetteville) to get rid of them.

Now ask me again, why I really need a long vacation?