I fed the barn early this morning, came in and have done nothing but lay around and sleep on and off.  I’m simply exhausted.  My back is hurting from yesterday’s rides.  I need to go (since it’s Sunday and my day off) and ride but it’s hot out there and I’m seriously lacking the motivation.

On a good news front, we fitted Kathy’s saddle on Cook and it fits!  So Kathy is gonna let me borrow it for a lil while, until I figure out what I want to do.  So at least I will be able to ride my horse now without being worried that I am hurting her.

I’m gonna have our vet examine Cook when she gets Fall shots in September.  That should see about medical causes.

I had a bad day today. Not even worth this blog space talking about it.

It’s so rare that I type this that I can barely believe it as my fingers press the keyboard..

I had a good day.

Its rare that I have had a WHOLE good day.  Work was good.  I had no headache.

and then I went to the barn.

I was gonna just hack Miss out in preparation for tomorrow’s lesson.  Mere came out and set a jump for us and we went over it again and again.  It was so FUN.  Man, I had FUN.  Mere made the jump wider and scarier… but Miss doesn’t care.  This is not a putdown on Cook to say this - I would NOT have gone over it on Cook.  Or maybe I would have but I would have been scared and nervous, riding defensively in case she backed off of it.
Miss was so stinking awesome!

Riding has always been fun.  I have a horse that I adore (read all the previous posts about Cook), that I know like the back of my hand, has beautiful gaits, and will always, always be my heart.  I will forever be loyal to Cook.

Miss is not cuddly, she doesn’t let me kiss her face like Cook, she will only come to me cause she thinks I might feed her,  she’s girthy, she’s strong… but she has given me such a GIFT.  She has given me back a love for jumping that I forgot… lost… misplaced.   I had a ball today with Mere.

Of course Mere praised me, (we are friends after all, she’s always gonna be like ‘good’!) but the best things she said was that I have gotten stronger and that my stamina is better.

However, the comment that REALLY made my day was Kathy.  She was out watching all of this, and she was complimentary about how Miss looked good, and was jumping “athletically”.  AW I LOVE IT!  YES!

Dern it!  I wish I had my video camera.  I would have loved to watch myself on tape.

Good time at the barn!  Mere was teaching a lunge lesson on Miss, so I warmed Miss up, then handed her off to the lunge lesson for the student.  I was on Cook.  Then after about 30 minutes, the student got on Cook and I got on Miss.  Both Miss and Cook were way good!

I’m tired!  But I feel like we got alot accomplished.  I LOVE riding those two.  Cook will always be special to me but right now with her back and saddle issues, I feel like I have ride her with kid gloves.  I try not to stress her out or ask too much of her.  On Miss, I feel like I’m really learning…

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So I heard from one of the boys about my “Boys are Dumb” post.  Although he’s not a regular reader of my blog, he just happened to read that and knew instantly it was about him.

Well, if it walks like a duck….

He seemed offended.  Join the crowd.
I just want to point out something tho, if you re-read closely.

I said “every boy I love…”.  Not like… not know….   but l-o-v-e.

You get mad at me,  you hate the way I am and we have caused each other pain and grief.  We argue, we fuss….
But know this.

I love you.  With all of my heart.  Have no doubts ever.

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Prison Break is back on Monday.  Sigh.  I finally get to see my baby’s daddy Wenty back on TV.  The best hour of my week.

still have that nagging sinus headache. taking meds. hopefully it will improve. I came straight home today because one, I still need to recover and 2, my laundry is piled to my ceiling. I’m not even kidding. what’s worse is that I have only done 1 load and I’m out of washing detergent!

ugh!! I don’t feel like running out.

I really really need to win the lottery. SO BAD! I would hire a housekeeper to do these things while I’m at the barn with my 3 horses (cook, 1 show one, 1 pleasure one).

Before I blog about the ponies, I just want to say…..

Pretty much every boy I love, WITH the exception of Richard and Ricky… is in the dog house right now. Yes. you (because u were mean). and you (cause u don’t ever see me anymore). and you (because u didn’t hold onto me when I loved you).

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Today Kathy convinced** me (didn’t take much) to ride so I dragged Cook out of the pasture and rode a lil bit. She is such a good girl. Very sweet and willing. We just messed around.

I took Miss out of her stall and let her hand graze for a lil bit after I rode. I’m determined to be her friend. Its like the sad, pathetic kid (me) in junior high that will do anything to get the popular kid (missy) to be nice to her and like her. She WILL like me.

Its’ funny cause I know Cook loves me but I can’t remember exactly when I figured that out.. or even how that came about exactly.

Had a lesson this morning. WORN OUT! I didn’t sleep good last night so I went to the barn tired. We were ok. Not the best I have been on Miss, but I still feel forward progress. Cook was good. I’m not really doing anything with her but just keeping her “in work”. Just keeping her under saddle but not stressing her (or her back) at all.
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I’m watching ‘Tupac Resurrection” on VH1. I hadn’t seen this before cause frankly 1, I thought it was crap and 2, I thought it would be painful. It’s actually very very good. It’s his own words and interviews and etc pieced together….

Because its’ been almost 10 (TEN) years since his death, most people don’t know how special he was to me. I LOVED Pac. I can’t even tell you how much. Well Ricky prolly can. I was obsessed with Pac. I rarely listen to him anymore because franky, I save it for my darkest days … I tend to listen now only when I am in the depths of depression, because that is when I am all out of strength… and his voice re-charges my fortitude.

What would he have been like now at 35, calmed down…

I rode Cook. She was good (of course).

I went to another farm to see Lauren horse show on Elvis. She did awesome. Elvis was a good boy.

Here is my best shot.

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I’m blogging here at 2:50 AM cause I can’t sleep.  That’s boo.  I’m also hungry but I can’t sleep on a full stomach (I know I’m the opposite of everyone else… )

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I heard another song that I like.  Christina A’s Save me from Myself.  Aw.

So I stole this from Shelly… I did have to edit some inappropriate questions tho… due to my audience (sister is only 11)
MEME-OLOGY

GRUB-OLOGY

What is your salad dressing of choice? ceasar

What is your favorite fast food restuarant? chick fila
What is your favorite sit-down restuarant? mexican
On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? 20%
What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? mexican
Name three foods you detest above all others. too many to name. everyone knows how picky I am
What is your favorite dish to order at a Chinese restuarant? fried rice
What are your pizza toppings of choice? just extra cheese
What do you like to put on your toast? Butter and grape jelly

What is your favorite type of gum? whatever except no big red.
TECH-OLOGY

Number of contacts in your cell phone? 45
Number of contacts in your e-mail address book? 50ish
What is your wallpaper on your computer? nothing, its’ black. I should put wenty up there.
What is your screen saver on your computer? microsoft windows thingy. I know. I’m lame.
Are there naked pictures saved on your computer? Nope

How many land line phones do you have in your house? None

How many televisions are in your house? 2
What kitchen appliance do you use the least? electric can opener
What is the format of the radio station you listen to the most? 97.5 R&B
BI-OLOGY

What do you consider to be your best physical attribute? skin. everyone comments on it. oh! and I have good cleavage.
Are you right-handed or left-handed? I’m a lefty.
Do you like your smile? yes.
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Wisdom teeth

Would you like to? um. no.
Do you prefer to read when you go to the bathroom? Sure.
Which of your five senses do you think is keenest? to detect when people are attracted to each other. It’s more of a sixth sense tho.
When was the last time you had a cavity? Dunno. I had to have a filling replaced last year. That wasn’t pleasant.
What is the heaviest item you lift regularly? 50lb bag of grain
Have you ever been knocked unconcious? No
MISC-OLOGY

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? yeah. that way I would know to get my stuff in order.
If you could change your first name what would you change it to? I like my name.
How do you express your artistic side? I’m not artistic.
What color do you think you look best in? black
How long do you think you could last in a medium security prison? um. as long as it took to get out.
Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? Yes. I swallowed a quarter when i was a kid. I was dumb.
If we weren’t bound by society’s conventions, do you have a relative you would make a pass at? no. Although I think my brother is the perfect guy, and I’m looking to date someone LIKE him… but not him. No thanks.
How often do you go to church? For funerals.
Have you ever saved someone’s life? Yes.
Has someone ever saved yours? Not that I can think of.
DARE-OLOGY

For this last section, if you would do it for less or more money, indicate how much.

Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000? yes. no doubt.
Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? Nope, I need all my digits.

Would you never blog again for $50,000? yes. no one reads this anyway.
Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? yes. if they can airbrush britney spears to look like she did on the vanity fair after I saw her on dateline, then they can airbrush my behind.
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,000? God no.
Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000? If I could choose the person. There are several people that don’t need to be walking around.
Would you shave your head and get your entire body waxed for $5,000? Nope. Not 5K. more than that.
Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000? yes I guess but I wouldn’t be happy about it

This IM exchange, between Eric and I, cracked me up. This is in reference to an old flame calling me.

(19:59:32) Crys: he hasn’t called me in like a year
(19:59:35) Crys: he sees me one day
(19:59:38) Crys: and then he’s calling
(19:59:40) Crys: boys are all the same
(19:59:41) Eric S: yes
(19:59:45) Eric S: cause u flirted with him
(19:59:49) Crys: no in fact I didnt’
(19:59:52) Eric S: yes u did
(19:59:55) Eric S: u just dont know it
(19:59:58) Crys: lol
(19:59:58) Eric S: girls dont realize
(20:00:01) Crys: how do you figure
(20:00:03) Eric S: any attention means flirting
(20:00:23) Eric S: girls play with boys emotions like that
(20:00:31) Crys: whatever.

HA! Is this true, boys? any attention means “I love you”? Too bad no guys read this blog.

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I hacked Miss tonight and she was a-w-e-so-m-e. I am highly motivated cause I think she and I are clicking … She is very yay.

I’m going to hack Cook out tomorrow. I’m trying to keep her in work but give her more time off to heal.