supposed to be warming up.  hopefully this will allow me to get back into riding… where I am happiest.

I know this is two miserable blogs in a row but… its’ whats on my mind.

So I know everyone has heard about Britney Spears shavin her head. It made CNN headlines for cryin’ out loud.

While most people snickered and prolly thought ‘freak’, I thought this:

Why does it take such a drastic act before someone will pay attention that someone is drowning?

And why do we look at someone else’s life and decide FOR them… that they should be happy because of what they have.

I so desparately want to be happy.  I am trying to pretend in hopes that one day, I won’t have to pretend.  I just will be.

It’s not working.

So I wait.  and listen to Theresa tell me there will be bad days.

But as I am waiting, I’m crawling out of my skin.

IM between Eric and I about Flintstone vitamins.

CrysLee2004: I’m eating another vitamin cause they are yummy
gt58411e: tsk tsk!
gt58411e: u gonna turn into a purple flintstone
CrysLee2004: I’m gonna be extra healthy
CrysLee2004: 4th one today!
gt58411e: BABE!!!
CrysLee2004: LMAO, kidding!
gt58411e: *sigh*
gt58411e: i’m goin to submit u to intervention
CrysLee2004: for flintstones?
gt58411e: yes

Who wants to come to my Intervention!?!?  Theresa has to, cause she’s the one who started me on Flintstones.  My brother will come, of course.  Eric will fly in.  My mom will be there too, but she will be talking about Ariana’s school project, the neighbor getting arrested and how she really liked “Dreamgirls”.

Yeah.  Welcome to my World.

here are updated pics of my projects.

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I felt like I spent alot of time in the jeep today, going back and forth to Durham twice and going to Benson to drop off mom.

Tired now.

today was a really good day.

I needed to get into work early so I took my shower the night before and laid out my clothes like I was in elementary school.  So I got up and was out the door in a timely manner.

I rushed out at lunch and managed to get a quick ride on a pony.  I was glad because I ended up not having time after work.

After work, I went and got my mom.

So my comment today is that it seems although I was in a good mood and had a good day, there were a few incidents of people TRYING to get me to snap.  :-)  Including my beloved brother who I usually NEVER fight with.  He’s mad at me about my jeep.  Um.  that was a CAR ACCIDENT.  HELLO!  I got new tires and there is still blue on the white parts of the tire that you are supposed to wash off…. and I haven’t.  UM, hasn’t it been ASS cold?  You think I’m gonna get out there and wash the jeep when the high is 37?  No thanks.

Anyway.  ugh.

It sort of sucks that the high is only gonna be 44 today but 61 tomorrow. Not only that, I have to meet or get my Mom from Fayetteville because she has a doctor’s appt in Durham that I have to take her to on Tuesday. (Don’t even get me started about why I have to do this instead of her retired husband). I don’t have the bandwidth to explain all of that.

I forgot about my mom when I said that I would cover feeding dinner at the barn tomorrow.  I just talked to her and we are going to try and schedule the meet-up for a lil later at 715.
So my point is … tomorrow is gonna be hell and I’m not even gonna get a chance to ride. I should have taken a half day but my work has alot of last minute requests going right now and so I should prolly stick around.

Why o’ why can’t I win the lottery?

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So today was completely awesome. Man, it renews my energy and inner being. I rode 2 and both were good.

Miss was good on the flat… she got a lil overexcited about the jumping part in the field. I was tired tho so I just gave up. She was being way good so I left it alone, instead of picking a fight.

The best part tho was Meredith riding Cook. I LOVE IT! Cook was pretty good too. When we went out in the field, she did her usual “jig” but I didn’t have to deal with it!! I was on Miss, the total country cross/eventing/trail horse!  Mere fits Cook well and doesn’t get rattled or annoyed with how she is.  (although she’s perfect to me :-)  She’s wayyy used to the TB characteristics.

Rachel, you did good today.  :-)

this is gonna be short ’cause i’m exhausted….  and I’m wheezing REALLY bad.  REALLY bad.  Like Eric could hear me on the phone wheezing. Good thing I CAN’T find a working inhaler!  YES!  I’m responsible!!
aw, the life of an asthmatic!

recap… had a really really good day.  RODE A TON.  so much my back hurts. 

had a good time and lots of laughs.  I rode a few friends’ horses.
and all ponies were good.

I did not, however, get to ride Cook or Miss.  I was way too tired.

But tomorrow, I will have lots of time to really give them a good good workout.  It should be warmer tomorrow too.

on a side note… I keep jumping out of my tack. I am gonna glue my ass to the saddle if I don’t stop.

The Office tonight.

I go about my business,

I’m doing fine.

Besides what would I say, if I had you on the line.

Same old story, not much to say.

Hearts are broken everyday.

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How sad is that Anna Nicole thing?

I got to ride today! It makes all the difference.

As Baby Montgomery says… SWEEEEET!

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Birdie. The Adventures Of.

Ok you know how I was just blogging about her love for eating horseshit. I get in the jeep last night and I smell something awful. I mean AWFUL. I look in the back seat and…. lo and behold…

Horse shit.

In

My

Jeep.

Not a little bit.  A good amount.  Meals on Wheels.

I almost got into another car accident trying to drive and turn around and beat my dog in the back seat. (who was trying to hide from me)

Then to add insult to injury, I come home today (and thank GOD I put her in the crate ’cause I have been leaving her out)… she has BARFED ALL OVER.

She is in so much trouble.

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Speaking of car accidents… today as I drove past my wreck site…. they replaced the whole guard rail. As mentioned previously, I tore the previous guard rail up. Pretty fast replacement, Dept of Transportation! I thought it would take like a (expletive) year to do it like it takes you to complete any road project.

Have I mentioned that I have been driving around orange barrels on Cary Parkway for frigging 6 months now?