I keep watching and watching the extended forecast…. just hoping that the weather will get warmer and break this misery of me having to wear long johns underneath jeans to ride….  and 5 shirts.

I just want the 50 degree mark.  That’s all.  Just 50.

no horsey stuff today… going to go out to dinner and see the girls tomorrow.

today = un-eventful.

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had a way too strong margarita. Now, I’m home and homesick for people that I love and miss terribly.

Rich. I love you. I want us to live together again.
Ricky. I miss you more than you will ever know.

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Theresa said that she thought about me during the Superbowl halftime show when Prince did a cover of “The Best of you”… only the BEST SONG IN THE WORLD.

hey we are scrapbooking on Feb 24th at 3pm.   If you wanna scrapbook with us, let me know.

First off, scottie is gone for a 4 days on business. gimme a break! who can I eat mexican with? ugh, I’m so mad at him…. and all he says in return is “can’t help it, sorry, have to.” ugh ugh ugh.

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My house cleaning tonight consisted of me turning on the dishwasher.  nice huh?

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I went and got a physical today. As part of that, I got a tetanus shot and 4 vials of blood drawn. So my arm is sore. I was paranoid about my blood and glucose levels because of all my mom’s health problems but it looks like I am healthy. No blood or sugar in my pee problems. More extensive testing will come back on Wednesday but nothing alarmed my doctor.

I did complain about being tired ALL THE TIME. I can’t catch my breath. But I know (and won’t admit to myself) that is more mental stress than anything physical. Basically I had a physical done to rule OUT any medical problems I might have. The last months have been tramatic for me - I have had a broken heart, a broken dog, a broken horse, and a broken jeep. It’s enough to make anyone tired.

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I have decided to be more social even when I don’t feel like it. I am MAKING myself be more social. I am gonna be careful though about who I am social with. I don’t need to get back into circles where the end result is that I am sick at the end of the night.

I need to have more FUN. So that is what I am going to do.

my dog likes to eat horse poop.

like all the time.

its’ pretty gross too… it’s not even old poop that could be mistaken for something else…. she will nibble on fresh-still-steamy poop.

today I noticed a huge fat roll on her. I could reduce her dog food… but what do I do about the poop?

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I rode Cook today and she was pretty good. I had to work to really hold her together but like yesterday, the ring is pretty sloppy so it wasn’t un-expected. Her canter left a lot to be desired… the first 3-4 times I tried to canter her, she threw a fit and bucked and hopped up and down. I kept at it and she finally stopped being a pill. I really had to put my leg on her to get her to go forward and had to growl at her a few times to get her to keep going… she wanted to stop and throw a temper tantrum every time she went through the mud. That girl. She’s so funny.

Cook was separated from Tig yesterday because Tig’s baby is due soon. As older horse friends know, Cook has some separation issues. We are trying to give her Apogee, Tig’s daughter and look alike and May, a pony. As I did the barn today, she screamed and screamed at me at the gate. Not in a “I love you” way, but a “Hey Lady! bring back Tig” way.

I hope she settles soon.  I’m a little stressed about it.

A first today!

I gave my first shot today. It was ridiculously easy. I have been nervous about doing it for years. I have no idea why.

Yay for me.

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I rode both girls, even though I was still sore from the Jeep accident. I hit my head and hurt my neck in the Jeep. My sleeping at nights has consisted of a lot of Ben Gay.

The ring was yucky and it was cold ~35.

Sucks.

Just checked the week’s forecast….  next 3 days won’t get out of the 30’s as highs. UGH UGH UGH!

When is spring again?

went and saw Cook and Miss after work.

Cook is so dirty and so hairy that I tried to clip her… and my clippers wouldn’t clip her!   The fur is too thick!

also, I’m not sure what happened, I must have been drunk clipping her before because instead of 2 finger width bridal path, her bridal path is like 5-6 fingers!  what?!?!?  what did I do here?!?!!
I’m a terrible mother.  :-)

Got into a wreck in the jeep today. Nice one. Didn’t hit anyone else, but managed to mangle the jeep. I slid into a guardrail, bounced off, slid into the opposite guardrail. It wouldn’t start… some nice guy stopped (I didn’t even get his name) and towed me out of the road to the entrance of a neighborhood. I called Scott (of course, crying) and he came and got me. Scott is the Raleigh Richard. They are both the same. There, when u need them. Both not overly comforting, but more matter of fact. Ironically, they both said the same phrase to me… “Not the end of the world”.

So I couldn’t get the jeep started, the tow guy couldn’t get it started but when Scott came, he cranked it right up. Maybe the jeep has a crush on him.

I have had the worst single, string of bad luck and bad moods of anyone I know.

So anyway, I am fine. I had a headache earlier, but I think that is more from the trama of this than anything else. My neck and nerves are shot… so I am home… going to take a large amount of drugs, and then I am going to lay down. For the Rest of the Night.

Then to top it off, my lymph nodes are swollen. So it looks like I finally might be catching the cold that has been traveling around the office. Goody! Just in time for the weekend!

For those posting comments, I appreciate ALL comments… BUT I don’t wanna hear how 1) other people have worse, OR 2) your life could be worse, (cause quite frankly, it sucks so bad right now, I don’t know HOW it could get much worse).

So I’m going now, to hide from the (expletive!)-ing world under my electric blanket with my one surviving dog.