sat on 2 today.  both went well.

My seat is soooo much better at both the trot and canter.

Had a great conversation with J today about riding.  He is extremely supportive and kind about my riding.  I told him I wanted to be a prettier rider.  I am envious of the way he and B rides.  I know he’s a pro but still.  It is inspiring to watch them.

you ever had a good day creep up on you when you least expect it?

Today was one of those days.

4 things happened.

1st thing - Ami’s breeder came out and gave me a photo book with Ami baby pictures. omigod! He was so fricking adorable. There are tons of pictures and it was organized with dates and in a little book that says ‘un ami’ and everything. It means the world to me. I cried in front of the breeder.

Everyone knows what I went through with trying to find out Cook’s history. It has been so different with Ami. The breeders and I email back and forth - I send pictures and updates. They sent an email of support and encouragement after I found out Ami’s diagnosis. I am so happy that Ami came from a place of love and was so well taken care of.

2nd - An owner who had a horse in training with us (horse went home) sent me a thank you note today. She sent me $25 and thanked me for taking care of her horse, for keeping him clipped and mane pulled. The thank you card was a picture of her horse as a baby. LOVED IT. So nice when people appreciate you.

3rd - and this is the MOST AWESOME THING. One of the owners that is there with 2 horses got me a present as a ‘get-well’ present for Ami. It is a dressage show pad with a dressage horse on it and “Un Ami” under it. IT IS soooooooo gorgeous. I cried at that too.

4th - MOE’S has margaritas!!! and they are awesome! and I had one at lunch!

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Eric called me and we were talking about HY, the girl I talked about previously as having a “Cook”. Told him about how it meant alot to me for someone to really understand… I cried when I was telling him. We chatted about Cook’s history.

CrysLee2004: and I don’t know why that is important to me but it is. I want to know that she was loved
that someone else took care of her but I dont’ think that anyone else ever did. They sold her at auction
gt58411e: u made up for their shortcomings babe
gt58411e: more than

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I spent alot of time crying today. But good tears.

bi-polar people amaze me.  they seem to be attracted to me.

I’m back from the show. I’m so exhausted and horribly feeling bad. There is something wrong with my jaw / gums on one side. Am gonna call the dentist first thing in the morning to get an appt. it is random and weird. but so damn painful… it HAS to be an infection. My gums are swollen and under my jaw hurts to even touch it.

Nice huh?

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I know that as I type this, fatigue is just over-whelming. But I wanted to briefly blog this.

At the show, I stayed with a girl who trains with J and B… I didn’t know her very well. We had met a few times but never really talked. The rooming situation was crowded and she offered to let me stay with her.

Of course, over the 3 day, Cook came up and my love for her. We talked for hours and it turns out she has a “Cook”. The way she described her love and the things she did were SO similar to the things I did for Cook, it sent chills through me. She has a new horse too… similar to Ami in the way that we both got new horses we are bonding with. I just talked to her about how much, how hard I am FIGHTING to make him mine, to make him love me, to make him take me to the heights I couldn’t with Cook. I told her about how I don’t know how much longer I can do this. Horses are just so much heart break that I can’t stand it sometimes.

I cried alot with her. I cry now, writing this post.

It was comforting for someone to understand, listen, and share.

still at the show…   things are going well… and yes, I am having some fun.  Clients are super nice and most of them are super appreciative of me caring about their horse.  I do honestly love their horses.

No pictures.  Don’t I suck.  It got cold here so we are shivering … not to mention it rained.  So prolly no pictures tomorrow either.  must get a new camera.

hope all is well back home.

spent alot of today braiding…  grooming, video-ing horses, going over tests, cleaning tack… all the regular non-glamarous horse show stuff.

again, I’m tired today and really ready to go to bed.  I am ready to come home and see Ami too.  And lil birdie.  Plus kitty.  and last but not least, Little.

Only 2 more days.

headed to Williamston, NC for a 4 day show. Managed to have all the horses and crap packed. We left a little late but not too bad.

First day of show just setting up stalls, handing walking horses and tacking up horses for J to school everything. I was exhausted and my patience was thin by the end of the day.

I get ZERO cell phone reception out here so I’m cut off from the rest of the world.

whew, I spent so much time at the barn today…  ridiculous!  I got there around 9am and left around 9pm.  I clipped and bathed and pulled manes and packed and blah blah and blah blah…. zzz zzz zzz.

Leaving at the butt crack of dawn tomorrow.   Determined for us to get out of there on time!

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Spent alot of time with Ami today.  Determined to set aside time every day with him.  he makes me feel bad - being stalled.  He watches me.  I told J that and I don’t think that he took me seriously.  Every time I walk by, he nickers.   He wants me to let him out.  It’s like he’s in isolation.  He has a lick-it.  Need to remember to put a jolly ball in there with him.

Tried to hand walk him today and that didn’t go well.   Someone started a tractor when we were close to it… and he flipped his mind.  So here I am trying to pull his head in and keep a hold of Ami while he’s cantering around me…  I yelled for help but no one could hear me over the tractor.

Yeah.  I was irritated.

So I told Lindsey who is watching him for me while I am gone to walk him with a nose chain just in case.

blogging early today because who knows what time I will get home today.

About to head to a show for 4 days.  So today I will finish clipping and starting bathing so we don’t have to mess with bathing stallions at the show grounds.  Fun stuff.

Loren put the eggbar on Ami so he can hand walk.  I’m gonna hand graze him today.